30 days

I made it to 30 days sober this past Thursday, only with the help of God and the people he has put into my life. It was a rough week, and I had a couple days I was feeling tempted to give in and just have a drink but I stayed strong and made it to the 30 day mark and beyond.

My last post was a look back, I have realized the signs of God in my life. Before I was brought back to faith, my drinking had been going on for years, building over time. I would scream at my kids for no reason, my husband and I fought frequently - I would even get violent against him at times, I had days that I was so hungover I could hardly manage to even take care of my kids. One would think that any of those things would cause someone to want to quit.. not in my case, I didn't care. I just kept doing the same thing, no matter how bad I felt the next day.

It was around the time that I confirmed/confessed my faith in front of the church that I now attend that slowly a feeling of guilt started to grow. On top of the physical pain, I was feeling torn about what I was doing and how it was causing me to act/feel. That feeling grew into my quitting the first time, which didn't last long and the guilt came back instantly after that failure. I can feel and see the Spirit helping to keep me strong through my faith in the grace I have through Jesus. Here's to another 30 days and beyond.

I hope that sharing my story can help someone else know that grace, whether I know them or not. It's not something I want to keep to myself.