Anger, an endless cycle

"The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid? One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. (Psalm 27:1,4)"

An appropriate reminder today.

I was going to post something about fear but today my main struggle is anger. I've been snapping at everyone since I got done with work today. I didn't even have a bad day necessarily but anything anyone of my family does, I snap and yell at them.. now I feel guilty, but that doesn't break the cycle of the yelling, at least for today.

Praying for some peace.

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